All da Single Ladiez

I think I'm ready to be single. I mean, I've been single for quite some time now. But for the first time in a while, I actually feel it. Like I've always had someone there, whether I was dating them or not, to just fall back on. Or even felt like I had an obligation to stay monogamous because I guess that's just how I am. I often feel like if I'm hooking up with someone for several months that maybe I shouldn't be hooking up with other people. It's just been a personal belief of mine. But in the past couple months, I haven't been thinking that way and it kind of got me upset because I thought that I was doing something wrong. Like I actually felt bad. But for what reason? I'm not committed to anyone. I have no obligation to be faithful to one person because God knows these people are not faithful to me. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not just sleeping with random people. I know I never want to get to that level. But I realize now that I often make myself feel bad for things that I just shouldn't have to feel bad about, ya know?

I also am going by this new motto when it comes to relationships of "If he likes you, he'll make it a point to be with you." And it's been working out pretty well. I've never felt more free than I have in the past couple weeks and it's great. Nothing bothers me. Well, not nothing. A few things bother me but I don't let these things ruin my day anymore.

I've also been feeling great because I started to go to the gym everyday except weekends. I guess it keeps my energy flowing..sort of. I thought that after I maybe started going to the gym and worked out everyday, that I wouldn't feel so tired all the time. But that's not the case. I think I'm just eternally tired. Which is fine because sleeping is like my favorite thing to do.

Alright, I think that's all for today.