I think I've been watching Six Feet Under too much or something. The past two weeks I've been getting these really horrible nightmares. And not like nightmares where there's a monster chasing you or some unrealistic thing is happening to you. The nightmares feel so real and they are totally plausible which may be why I find them so scary. Everytime I think about someone throughout a day and how much I miss them and/or love them, when I go to sleep, they either die or do something so terrible to me in my dream that it just breaks my heart right in half. I have woken up from my sleep the past 5 nights crying. They are getting so much worse.

I don't know what else to do anymore. I can't even be happy in my dreams.